~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

22 July, 2008

Sea Dreams - by Susie Hemingway

Sea Dreams.

In dreams that free the tangled man
you walk on beach of fine white sand,
it's in your soul to yearn this so,
a struggle yes! but we shall go

I know you dream to smell the sea
to fill those lungs with ozone free
to feel warm breezes brush your skin
taking pain from deep within

the sea a vivid colbert blue
on crest of waves a dream or two,
your slim brown feet will curl and flex
as salty ripples flow and ebb

dream dear man for it will be,
to walk the sands again with me,
to feel the sun on tortured skin
to ease all damage held within

for if I have to carry thee,
among the palms your limbs will free,
your eyes will see, your heart will soar,
the pain no longer at your door.

"Sea Dreams" that deep become,
a wish for thee, that will be done...

All Rights Reserved July 2008

05 July, 2008

Is There Ever A Right Time ?

Is there ever a right time when you are severely ill to take a holiday? Some would say that's a risk too far! Maybe because we have been so shocked at the invasion into our lives of this 'Myeloma beast' and also Hamada had so many serious complications during the past two and half years, that we have never felt it possible that he should leave his home, even for a short time. Still after consultation with Hamada's doctor and obtaining the consultants letter to aid the travel insurance, we have decided the time is right, to take a Mediterranean trip. Hamada is doing well right now. Yes, he is incredibly weak and certainly not in brilliant shape, but nearly all the medical stats show a small improvement and so, if we are to keep on keeping on... we have decided the time is now. Hamada grew up by the sea in Alexandria and although we are not returning 'this time', his passion is still for the 'Med' and I know this beckons him. So we have found a little island to visit.
Having always believed strongly, that to give power to the Multiple Myeloma, when it is our power, that should dominate it, is the only way forward. Hamada is a brave man, and he is a fighter, and a warrior, and yes, this is the right time... ok, it's a gamble, let's hope we make it and that it will be a very special holiday for him. I shall endeavor to make it so.

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every
experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.
You are able to say to yourself,
"I have lived through this horror,
I can take the next thing that comes along"...
You must do the thing you think you cannot do.

Eleanor Roosevelt 1884 - 1962

02 July, 2008

I Will Not Be Broken by Jerry White.

It was with great interest that I read "White's" inspirational book after it had been brought to my attention. This book with it's clear steps on how to overcome life's diversities in the face of tragedy felt to me, like it had a place here on this 'blog'. Jerry White talks with great clarity of the unavoidable moment that divides our lives into the "before" and "after" at the point of tragedy or change. About what helps us to emerge stronger and perhaps wiser to reshape our lives in yes a different way, but while we search to recover we emerge even stronger. Many people have sent me mails and comments about my poetry on this 'blog'. About how they have helped in some way. "I Will Not Be Broken" appeals to me greatly and I think it will to some of my readers to.

"This is a compassionate book in " I Will Not Be Broken" Jerry White brings his insight and experience to bear expertly for those facing life's unexpected challenges"

I Will Not Be Broken is on sale @ http://www.amazon.co.uk.

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