~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

21 May, 2007

You Elude Me .

Sleep how you elude me,
dreams furthest from my mind,
heart that cannot rest unknowing,
looking darkness, hard to find.

Dark thoughts that push all sleep away,
from pain that comes from daily strain.
Can I fulfill your every need,
Can I answer every plead.

Turning here,turning there,
wretched, tired with mind alive.
Settle, rest, no time to spare,
in sleeping, with all unclear.

Sleep how you elude me,
dreams furthest from my mind.

I walk the floor, the dark of night,
black the sky, with heart that fights,
quiet should produce a rest,
but sleep, how you elude me best.

Darks my lover, where are you?
Sleeps my Angel, far from me,
heart that cannot rest unknowing,
where's your wings to cover me.

Oh! beloved sleep, how you elude me best....

@ Copyright 2006


Anonymous said...

A Poem for all those 'none sleepers' I did enjoy this - All best wishes for you plight.

Anonymous said...

Excellent work love all your poems keep up the good work nicely laid out website too.
All the best
Richard and his team

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you so much Sir Richard.

Anonymous said...

This is a great poem!! love it. from a none sleeper.

Anonymous said...

This is 'Wonderful Stuff' - from the Office xx

Anonymous said...

We agree with Richard and the Office, great stuff Susie, from Micheal

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you for your comments, I'm so glad you like the poems

Jewel said...

Lovely view
Lovely words.


Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Jewel - All Best Wishes

Anonymous said...

Brillant Poem from a non sleeper - Jemma

Anonymous said...

you are a wonderfull wife to take care of him and love Hamada that much.
we all pray for him to get well soon and god bless him and to have this wonderfull days again together.
Kisses and love for you and Hammada
Azza, Mamdouh,May ,Khaled,Menat, mona and little nado

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