~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

26 May, 2007

If You Feel You Cannot Stay.

If You Feel You Cannot Stay.

Darkest sky of leaden light

crescent moon in ageless flight,

Paris on a rainy day,

and if you feel you cannot stay

deep within my heart you'll be,

and I will see it all for thee.

Pretty ladies passing by,

clouds of white that seem to fly.

Trees of green, in early bloom,

these will take away my gloom.

Look and see, for if you do

house on hill, and friends for you,

deep blue seas, the 'honeycomb' man,

and if you really have to leave,

then I will see it, just for thee.

The lovely child who's soon a man,

I will guide him, if I can.

The music of those lovely years,

will drift with angels to your ears.

And if you really need to leave

then I will hear it, just for thee.

When your body is tired from trying

when your heart is slow to beat,

I will take you on a journey,

when we danced in summer heat.

Windows wide with sultry air,

scented perfumes in my hair.

You will hold me in your arms

and I'll remember, all your charms.

We will twirl in tango sway,

and if you feel you cannot stay.

And if you really want to leave,

then I will see it all for thee.

I will see the memories past

and if I really keep them true,

then I can do it all for you.

But if you really need to leave,

Then I will do it all for thee .
@ Copyright 2006



MattR said...

I like this one...really nice poem.

Susie said...

I'm so thrilled it pleases you.

Jenny said...

This is lovely and with such compassion.

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Jenny - I am so glad you like this one.

Amen said...

Hamada calls this 'A Poem From The Heart' Thank You, My Love.

Sally Leeves said...

Your poem 'If You Feel you Cannot Stay' had me in tears, The way you express your feelings is heartbreaking, but also a great expression of the love you two hold for one another. You are so blessed to have such a beautiful love and hopefully it will give you the strength to go on with the fight against this loathsome illness.

Susie Hemingway said...

I did not mean to make you cry - but thank you for your lovely comments

Alfie Johnson said...

This echoes the feeling that our loved ones dont go away - but just out of sight and we see and feel everything for them, once again another wonderful poem from you Susie - Great work. Alfie

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Alfie for your lovely words

Janice Thomson said...

A poignant and utterly selfless poem Susie. Your strength and courage are a shining beacon in a world where pain is so prevalent.
Thank you for the comments on my blog.

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