~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

12 July, 2007

I Wish I Could Untangle You - July 2007




See twinkling eyes that dull with pain
eyes once bright as fire flames
we juggle pills to make it wane
with every day I cry for you


moving now is hard to do
limbs get stuck refusing to
unbend, and move as graceful should,
I wish I could untangle you


dreams that see you run again
walk the miles that never end
play the games we used to do
dance forever, just us two


this once strong man
who laughs with me
now has morphine in his tea
instead of 'bubbles' in a glass
thinking of sweet days gone past,


still we can dance, if very slow
so legs don't stumble, I'll
not let you go, put on
the music, hold me tight
and yes, it still feels very right

we'll play the soft and gentle songs
the ones you love, we'll float along,
I'll watch your singing eyes
and wish I could, until I die,


I wish I could untangle you
I wish.... I could untangle you






@ Copyright 2007


27 comments:

Ken - My Space said...

Sadly poignant and heartrending Ken

better -half Ms said...

Dear Susie
As one reads this beautiful message, they can hear the 'pain' that's crying out in your very soul.
God Bless. You've a beautiful and brilliant heart.

Connie - MySpace said...

God Bless you from Connie (My Space)

Anonymous said...

When i read this , i feel the tears is running from your eyes, and you try to be strong , more stonger than ever , and expressing your pain and syffer in this page , what a wonderful writings and what great feelings and love inside you heart

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Anonymous for your beautiful comments, it is very kind of you to take the time to enter them . My best wishes to you

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Ken for your good comments.

Jewel said...

I wish you could, too.

You are such an elegant poet.
The lines flow effortlessy.

Hope all is well,

Jewel

Ellie said...

As i sit and read the latest, i can feel tears running down my face, even though I only saw him yesterday with his graceful smile not even showing a glimmer of his pain. He was so pleased to see us all and i wish i could be there everyday. I love you both so very very much.xx Ellie.x

Susie Hemingway said...

As always dear Jewel, thank you for your sincere and very kind comments - Hamada is still fighting to win his battle, with the prayers and support of all his family and friends - he thanks you all. with love Susie

Susie Hemingway said...

So many thanks to our dear Ellie, who's love and very great support is always there for both of us. This very much loved niece spends some of her precious time coming up to give of herself. She brings treats for her Auntie Susie just to boost my spirits ( thanks for the Jackie O sunglasses this weekend, amongst other lovely gifts ) How we both love her. x

Jojoe said...

beautiful, just beautiful Love Jojoe

Susie Hemingway said...

Thanks Jo xxxx

josh said...

Such a gem, a stunningly beautiful poem all good wishes to you, from josh

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Josh for your wonderful comments and my best wishes to you.

Jim Parish said...

I wish i could untangle you is so poignant and beautifully written- best wishes to you.

Anonymous said...

what a wonderful poem and website - my best wishes to you both Josie Beamer

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you, Jim Parish for your kind words

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Josie, and all best wishes to you to.

Claire Apps said...

To, two very dear friends and the two nicest people I know..
The Poems are lovely, they made me cry, spoken from the heart, I love you both and miss having you up near to me
Love From Claire ( Apps )

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Dear Claire, for your wonderful Comments - I am so glad that you find my poems lovely, You are such a dear friend to us both and your constant support to me has been wonderful - you are indeed what being a friend is all about. Love as always Susie xxx

Gillian Baker said...

This poem has moved me to tears - what a wonderful 'blog' and a wonderful poet. All the best from Gillian

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Gillian for your very nice comments, all best wishes to you.

Anonymous said...

Mark Brown thanks you for such lovely poems, i am also suffering at the moment and these poems have brought me such comfort. Bless you

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Mark for your nice commments. I send all good wishes to you and sincerely hope you find some peace

Anonymous said...

Just wonderful Susie.

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you 'anonymous' for your nice comments

Anonymous said...

Yes! it's still my favourite a wonderful poem of Love, Mark

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