~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

06 October, 2007

The Spiders Web - by Susie Hemingway

As the spiders web draws you in
your eyes flicker becoming dim
I reach in terror to ease your pain,
but however I work, there is no gain.
the mist around your tired face
draws you gently to that place.
don't enter the web that pulls you close,
stop spinning spider, leave your prey.

We fight and fight this daily battle
and hate the spider and its chattel
who tries so hard to lure you,
so easy is that gossamer thread
that wants to take you from your bed,
floating in the calm warm air
let me brush your silver hair,
go back spider, let go your grip.

Go take your 'arachnid' ways,
and spin somewhere another day
go find a substitute not him
and leave this gentle quiet soul
go spin your large white wheels of lace
that ensnare and strangle in their wake,
go back and think again,
for this is one, you'll never win.

Stop spinning now, don't draw him in.
leave him quietly, to sleep at peace.
go find your other prey to squeeze
for I don't like your weaving ways
and this one has more sunny days.
You nasty creepy malignant beast
leave him be, go make your web
your threads that spin and crept within.

So easy is that gossamer thread...

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Ken - My Space said...

Superbly written Susie,eerie and creepy with the sinister 'message' coming through.

Anonymous said...

Very good poem. You really make the reader see what you are seeing and feeling. God bless you and your family. Connie

Jo Moursi said...

Very deep Mum , shows how you both can take this battle on!

Well written def one for the book!

Love Jo

laura jamson said...

hi susie - im a friend of jo, and he has just shown me some of your poems - very impressive. heartfelt and moving.

good luck with everything! lots of love, laura xx

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Ken for your great comment, my best wishes to you.

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Connie ( My Space). I am so glad you enjoyed this poem, thank you for your comments.

Susie Hemingway said...

Yes Jo - deep indeed, written when Dad was suffering much pain - My angry feelings coming to the fore I'm afraid.
Much love xxx

Susie Hemingway said...

Hi Laura, How kind you are to say such nice things, I appreciate you taking time to comment on my poems.

Anonymous said...

What a great poem telling the story, all the best jimmy

Anonymous said...

You have captured the link between this awful disease and the creepy spider and strangling web well. A most interesting and well constructed poem. Bless you. Tony Wells

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Jimmy for your kind comments

Jewel USA said...

I feel that the spider is having a difficult time of it,at least that's what I wish. Love Jewel

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