The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/ showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.
11 February, 2008
A Walk In the Sunshine along the 'Corniche' at Sutton-On-Sea. - Jo, Hamada and Susie.
For those of you that have contacted me to ask about hearing the BBC Interview. This can still be heard, with the reading at the end, of the Poem "I Write For You" On http://www.susiehemingway.com/ under the: Categorie- Site News. Just 'click on' Interview MP3 and an edited version is still available to hear.
An Evening at the Bluebell - Jan 2009
Messages for "A Power Within"
Sir Richard Branson: comments on 'You Elude Me'
"Excellent work love all your poems keep up the good work nicely laid out website
too. All the best. Richard and his team."
A big thanks to Richard for reading 'A Power Within' and leaving some encouragement - you can read ' You Elude Me' here
Visitors: 26,050 @ Feb 2010
Visiting at Lincoln County
"We Dance Again" - Alex 1986
Poem witten February 2008
Hamada @ "Hemingway"
Lora Conrad : Susie -"Calm Are These Days" painted a breathtaking aura of colour and serenity that floated me above the clouds so I could envision it in slow motion - breathing in every word - it was magical! Especially for those of us who share Multiple Myeloma with Hamada, poetry gives us an escape from "over thinking" our situation. With a beautiful name like Susie Hemingway Moursi, it is no doubt poetry flows as freely as a river from your pen. Some things are just meant to be. Thank you for making our world a better place and creating a blog we can escape to in our own days of needs! You are a treasure. Much Love and & Respect Lora.
Excellent : Powerful sentiments and emotions expressed with skill, heart, and care. Colin Brown.
Karen Brook Westhaver: You blog is poignant, exquisite and simply amazing, your web-site is utterly delightful! I have no words to describe the beauty of your poetry as to try to do so would seem to take away from it's incredibly creative and beautifully woven words reflecting the inestimable power of love and fully living life connected with all your senses and feelings. This takes much courage. http://www.joyfortheday.blogspot.com/
Comments on latest poem: "How Still" Your words are subtle, yet sublime, and lift the psyche to a peaceful place where my faith in the good of humanity is restored...You ought to publish and let the world enjoy too. Ken
Hamada and Susie
"Wearing his Crown"
Hamada and Susie
"A Love Affair"
Calm Are The Seas.
From Kenth Olsson This poem"Calm Are The Seas" somehow speaks to me, but I can't explain how. This beautiful painting follows the text so well. It also speaks to me, calming my hurt and despair. I feel so much more hope now. Thank you so much Susie for your poems and to Hamada for your loving inspiration.
I am so lucky to live in a beautiful village, nestling in the Lincolnshire Wolds with it's beautiful countryside and Only 210 inhabitants, one church and one Pub. From The Poem By Tennyson - native of this area: "Calm and deep peace on this high wold,
and on the dews that drench the furze and all the silvery gossamers, that twinkle into green and gold".
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Extract from the poem - Dreams of Montazah - by Susie Hemingway
He dreams of Montazah, the palace within his mind, as he is quietly resting, I know he goes back in time. The splendid 'Salam-lek' palace built high on hills above this turquoise studded jewel, secluded bay, entwined with doves.
Amid the palms, stands clearly this monument of love, built from finest 'redbricks', a blessing from above. Smooth and graceful, standing proud, with white 'najood's' and sea around his feet would walk in verdant grounds, in peaceful harmony, no sound...
An Extract from - CAIRO - by Susie Hemingway
Oh, Cairo of the sepia light empurple in the late of night, the sparkling rays on marble stones the quickest steps and gleaming domes. The narrow streets and alleyways, the different smells, the different ways. The hookah pipes, the mint tea trays, Oh! Cairo and your faded ways
The dark robed men with beads and dice delicious honey with special spice, the bright and silky lengths of cloths tahina, lentils in a pot. Can you recall this magic place? for I can see your handsome face. Oh! Cairo of the sepia light... Cont.
Extract from 'Lilies' - 2007 - by Susie Hemngway
Do you remember long ago, you found that magic place, where lilies filled most every room and beds were dressed in lace, the men in polished uniforms took bags and opened doors and the crystal of the chandeliers twinkled straight on marble floors...
Jo sings "Lean Towards Me" by Susie Hemingway see http://www.myspace.com/jomoursimusic
Extract from Oasis Town - by Susie Hemingway
It's splendid vista way up high, the 'Jebel Hafeet' in clear blue sky, my lover took me to this place where snaking roads make hearts race, this flowered bordered oasis town set as the 'Rub Al Khali' surrounds.
The silver platters of fruity dates were passed with hands of love not hate, the dark fringed lashes on dark brown eyes could melt a heart in candlelight, the over-whelming scent of musk made 'giddy feelings' turn to lust... Cont.
WE MAY NOT KNOW
We may not know we have it till we're well into the race, Or feel we're nearly overwhelmed by challenges we face- But then we look much deeper for the power to succeed. And find we have an inner strength that meets our greatest need..
Hamada - Collecting 'Stem Cells'
Extract from - Anything Can Happen - by Susie Hemingway
Take back all that's binding him and let him free again you would not miss him there, but we will wither and fade without him by our sides., his laughter, and his twinkling eyes let him stay in this star studded world...
Hamada and His Grandson Manu
A Special Bond
Extract From 'If I Could Dream You Well Again' by Susie Hemingway
In dreams I make you well again in the quiet velvet of the night you run with me in endless flight, far away in thoughts of long ago we run on beaches sailing to deserted islands, strong were the arms that pulled the boat ashore., In dreams I see you there once more...
Extract from Do You Remember Paris - By Susie Hemingway
Do you remember Paris so many days ago, we ran in the rain me in the highest heels, and you never letting go, dodging busy bustling streets, pass the Galerie of fine arts wishing we could buy the shop, do you remember Paris... Cont.
Extract from - A Teardrop From Your Eye - by Susie Hemingway
I saw the teardrop from your eye you turned your head, a little sign, you feel your pain, but seldom say " yes, it's been a difficult day" the courage of this daily battle, you're brave and steadfast, it's your way never letting in the sadness that begins at dawn and ends at sleep. I saw that teardrop from your eye it made me angry, it made me cry.
The changes you accept so well must be for you, a living hell, to not be steady on your legs to feel so sick, you need your bed you sit and drink the world right in in quiet ways, you always sing, you smile as if a secret brings a gift of happiness within. I saw the teardrop from your eye it made me angry, it made me cry... Cont.
www.myeloma.org (International Myeloma Foundation, IMF)
www.myeloma.org This is the American version of IMF UK containing up-to-date information about myeloma and its treatment, including information about the latest research.
Extract From - If You Should Leave Me - by Susie Hemingway
If you should leave me, where would you go. To that arab courtyard, where once you held my hand. The fountains flowed the coolness of the shade if you should leave me, where would you go.
If you should leave me, where would you go. To empty beaches where once we sat on fine white sand, under palms so tall. If you should leave me where would you go... Cont.
The Spiders Web
Extract From - The Spiders Web by Susie Hemingway
As the Spider's web draws you in your eyes flicker, becoming dim. I reach in terror to ease your pain, but however I work, there is no gain, the mist around your tired face draws you gently to that place. Don't enter the web that pulls you close, stop spinning spider, leave your prey... Cont.
Hamada at Nottingham
Extract From - Stay and Sleep - By Susie Hemingway
I can hear him sleeping I can hear the storm it's fierce ebony clouds scudding, it's yellow flashes spent itself against my window pain. Trees crashed, branches fell, and my heart no longer knew it's way.
Still he slept, his gentle breathing at odds with the violence, that shook my soul. Can you hear the storm? is it inside your realm is it beyond your pain is it beyond mine... Cont.
From My Window at "Hemingway"
The House Of Hope
The House Of Hope
This beautiful Dove Cote was built for us by Ian, when we were both very down and sadden by all that was happening to Hamada. I gain my strength from seeing it everyday, through my window, in the changing seasons. Thanks Eee
House Of Hope In The Snow
Spring @ Hemingway
A MOST USEFUL WEB-SITE.
A most useful Web-Site for Multiple Myloma Sufferers their families and friends - www.myloma.org.uk