~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

01 May, 2008

Two Years ~ Anniversary of Diagnosis by Susie Hemingway.


Two years, you made two years,
how simply sublime,
my days passed like a struggling river
pushing its direction to the sea,
the fast and furious moments sealed
in vaults of crashing tormented resolve
but stored with crystal clarity.

I stand on the islet like Ishmael
throwing all vehement thoughts in
the stream, torrents of anger,
this sense of sadness
I lay before you and
the currents carry them forth.

Two years, two years!
the river found it hard, the
dams and sluices got in it's way,
but it's power pushed them back,
do not give way, my troth intact,
my rage is rushing to the Sea,
for each tiny droplet of strength gathered
will fill the Ocean...


@ Copyright 2008
Photo Courtesy of Matt Rutherford
http://www.mattrutherford.com/ all rights reserved.

18 comments:

Michael Morse said...

Two years, two months, two weeks, two days, two minutes, two seconds, two people in love enjoying every instant they have together.

Stay strong, Susie and Hamada.

Anonymous said...

I can't add more than michael morse's previous comment, other than to say to my dearest sister and brother in law, we love and admire you both. Your talent and dedication Susie, are an ispiration to all your family and many others who visit your site. Janey.

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Michael for your great comment - we shall stay strong, hope all is well in Providence - best wishes to you and yours.

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Dear Janey for your very sincere and kind compliments and for being my great proof reader. X

Jewel - MySpace said...

May the next two years be placid, peaceful uneventful.
Love Jewel - Long Beach California

MattR said...

Lovely one Mum...here's to two more years.

Susie Hemingway said...

Thanks Matt, now that would be something!I'm sure we can achieve it, thanks also for the lovely photo, taken from your flickr XX

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank You Dear Jewel, How I wish this could be, just a quiet time with no great emergencies to deal with, so we can make the most of this time. Love to You, hope all is well.

Sunshine said...

Congratulations and best wishes for the next two and the next....

Celso Rosa said...

When I read your words and get in touch with the feelings you have for each other I always end up asking myself the same question: what have I done with my life? I'm sure those two years were much richer than my entire existence.
I always thought that happiness is not a place you can reach, but the journey you make trying to get there. The important thing is to have a goal, and to always remember to smile and feel happy when good things happen. At end, I think your journey was a quite happy one – so full of love! How I wish, sometimes, I could only know what that is.
I don’t know if you realise it, but I think you’re going to live for long, long time. You both are a miracle.

Cindy K. said...

Thank you so much for your message. [You left it on my original blog (cakassel55.healthblogs.org e.g. Cindy's Multiple Myeloma Blog). I then found "blogspot" which I like better---easier to add pics plus can add videos. So, I'm on the fence now as to which blog to choose...so I do both. Blogspot is my more "personal" one where I include both personal thoughts & Myeloma stuff...and I try to just stick to my Myeloma facts at Healthblogs.] Anyway...I look forward to reading your blog, as it looks amazingly interesting. What a beautiful couple and family you are. I used to write poems so I also look forward to your poetry. Hamada is precious; always smiling. You, too. Your love for each other is so apparent. I wish you both continued strength & courage & miraculous healing!! Again, thanks for your message. I will respond to your comment regarding the 5 acres on my "healthblog" blog. :) Much Love, Cindy

http://cindylives.blogspot.com/

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you so much celso rosa, for your kind words and thoughts of a good life - I am sure that each day will be special for you and we send our very best and sincere wishes to you and a big pat for your dog.
Heaps of Rainbows and Buckets of Stars

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Cindy for your comments and my thoughts and prayers will be with you every day as you continue your journey. All Best Wishes Susie

John. MySpace Friend. said...

Just wish I had one ounce of your strength and talent.You are both in our prayers as always. John

Judy said...

Oh! Susie, another wonderful poem from you. I can feel your torment, determination, strength and love...
I wish I could do something to help you my friend! As hard as it might be.. keep the faith and lets hope and pray the next two years will flow easier.
Your friend always Judy xxx ( MySpace)

Ellie Robson said...

Hi Auntie Susie
Just managed to get a chance to read 'Two years' It's absolutely beautiful..it's hateful news but I'm here to do anything I can. I love you both very very much xxx cant wait to come and see you x
Ellie

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you John and Judy both 'Myspace' friends, for your very kind comments. It is so good of you to take time to comment on my poems. Best Regards Susie

Susie Hemingway said...

Ellie, I am so glad you like this poem and thanks for the very kind comments - we are looking forward to seeing you very soon, xxx for a lovely family celebration xxxx Love you xxxx

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