~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

24 October, 2010

This Rollercoaster Life!


As swooping as the Rollercoaster
my heart hangs in fearful suspended news
that fills these 'purple days'.
Days that bring shattered dreams,
only the strongest mind can hold.

My laughter becomes an echo that teeters on the edge
as I snap and break at disclosures strewn around.
My heart bleeds to dissolve this anger
which knows no bounds and as unruly as my mind.

Soaring high into this shimmering mosaic sky,
I hang on like a child that screams into the wind,
as these punishing swoops, turn into views as
fragile and as consuming as this Rollercoaster life.



All Rights Reserved October 2010.

7 comments:

Sunshine said...

"like a child that screams into the wind..."
Yes, we do that.
Love & Prayers for you.

aslan said...

My best wishes, hapiness to family..

Michael Morse said...

I love roller coasters...no, actually I hate roller coasters, hold on, I really love them, wait a minute, I hate roller coasters. Love them. Hate them. love, hate, every step brings me closer.

Then I get to the front of the line and just let it go.

Sandy said...

Up and down, up and down... round and round... yes, it is as Michael says a "love-hate'" relationship with the news that MM brings. My heart and good intentions go out to you and Hamada as you face each day... XO

Lora Conrad said...

Oh, my - so well said in verse. I could feel your pain, anguish and emotions soaring high and crashing low. An excellent analogy for this dreaded situation you're living through daily. The pain emited from your heart reaches across the ocean to my heart - it aches for you. XOXO Lora

Walt Trachim said...

I can certainly understand the sentiment here better than I would ever have expected...

As always, Susie, I wish for nothing but the best for you and your Hamada.

:)

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you lovely peeps for all these kind comments - I re-read them in times of sadness. I was so lucky to have known this special man, he taught me so much about life and love. He will remain close in my heart for eternity.

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