~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

27 March, 2009

I Watch - by Susie Hemingway

In watchful reverence as slumber creeps
Comes the silver rays that cast shadows on my walls
My pen doth scratch the paper,
In breaking silence comes my poetry by moonlight,
Rest quietly beloved, with your rendezvous in dreams
This daily plunder systematically steals your frame
But nought can rob your soul.
This modicum of peace, this repose in sleep.
I proffer my heart as my hand trembles in writing,
Just your breath faint and steady, holds my heart.
And as the clouds cross the quivering rays
Leaving my heart in darkness,
In breaking silence, comes my poetry by moonlight...


All Rights Reserved :@ 2009
"I Watch" has been selected to be published in a forthcoming book by United Press called 'Poetry By Moonlight'

16 comments:

Sandy said...

I am breathless, caught up in the watching with you, quietly praying for both you and Hamada... I know angels are all around you as well.

milligan283 said...

Susie you do seem to able to describe your feeling and emotions incredibly well in verse

Bill X said...

Your usual great stuff Susie,keep strong not an easy road is it.

Anonymous said...

Gentle and tender words,such a nice verse but can feel the pain in your heart.
wishing you the best, Mark

Michael Morse said...

I waited for a quiet moment to savor this. I thought I knew nothing about peotry. My heart tells me I'm wrong. What good is knowledge when emotion carries such power?

I wonder what I was doing the night you wrote this. We shared the same moonlight, steady and timeless. The clouds that left your heart in darkness passed, as all things pass. Except, maybe, the light from the moon. And your love for Hamada.

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you all for your wonderfully kind comments and for taking time from your busy lives to enter them here. My sincere regards to you.
Susie X

Susie Hemingway said...

And A special thank you to Lt. Michael from Providence Rhode Island, who places his life on the line everyday! but still never fails to find time in his busy life to read my humble poems.

"Michael you know EVERYTHING there is to know about poetry, if a poem can tell a story that stirs your heart and you can relate to that story in some way, then the task of writing is worthwhile. You understand it all so well, making you a most compassionate man
Thank You and Keep Safe".

Anonymous said...

Janey loves this you are a star!

Anonymous said...

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Tessa said...

I recently came accross your blog and have been reading along. I thought I would leave my first comment. I don't know what to say except that I have enjoyed reading. Nice blog. I will keep visiting this blog very often.


Ruth

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Hilary and Richard said...

The poems are a true testament of your love for each other and how wonderful to be able to express your feelings so uniquely. Our thoughts and love are with you both. Hilary and Richard.

Susie Hemingway said...

Many thanks to Janey,Aya, Catherine, Matt and Teresa for taking time to comment X

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Tessa/Ruth It would be lovely to have you as a visitor to this site and thank you for taking the time to comment.

Richard said...

Again a beautiful poem Susie,I have seen the newspaper piece on Myspace it was very good. You are brave too you know. How you must help others in the same postion with these beautiful poems. Keep writing them for us x

Janice Thomson said...

Though so much pain in different ways for you both I sensed a bit of release here for surely the writing helps do just that even if only to give just enough courage to face the next day.

Susie Hemingway said...

How right you are Janice - I talked of this recently on BBC Radio and the interview can still be heard on www.susiehemingway.com under the category - site news, if you would like to listen just 'click on' Interview MP3, Thank you for your very kind comment

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