~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

03 March, 2009

" I Write For You" - by Susie Hemingway

As sun doth melt the silver days
and fresh green buds do chase away
the remnants of these chilly days,
I write for you...
you sleep and sleep my only love
you miss spring birds and clouds above,
in dreaming slumber, days do pass, and
even though against the breeze
the fragile words do come to me,
still sleep stays on those lovely eyes,
for days are shorter dear for you
the circle smaller, in violet blue,
again the sun will find it's rays
to warm your heart and fill your days
and I will spend my time with you
in quiet gentle solitude,
till this day, my only love,
I write for you...
soon once again, dear God for me
you'll sit on swing, beneath the trees,
to listen to the buzzing bees
the rustle of the summer leaves,
then you will snuggle close to me,
when smudges of my tears
do fall, to stain the ink,
and you will sleep,
and I will write
my words for thee...

This Poem read by Susie on BBC Radio on 20 May 2009 during Poetry Week, can be heard, on: http://www.susiehemingway.com ( just scroll down, past the poem "Love Smiles" )

Copyright @ 2009

19 comments:

Jane said...

Wow Susie that is truly tremendous, we both sat here with lumps the size of eagles eggs. You ought to get a poets award just for this one. You are a genuis with your poems J and A xx

Michael Morse said...

Beautiful, haunting, tragic, uplifting...thank you. I think I'll go kiss my wife and tell her why tears have filled my eyes when she asks.

Sandy said...

You have an amazing gift, Susie, to capture the depth of your feelings and to then project them out and share with us, your humble readers, is an even greater present. I have a relative with MM and hate how elusive and deceptive a disease it is. Your beloved is fortunate to have your caring heart as his support now and I pray for you to be surrounded by other loving hearts during this next phase. Blessings...

Judy: MySpace said...

Susie, as usual this is beautiful!!! so very poignant J xo

Anonymous said...

real! And powerful... I like these words! Proud of you both as you battle this exhausting illness... I'd like to see poem of hope!

All my love

Jo

Minna Van Stone [Facebook] said...

I love your poem " I Write For You" It is lovely and very obvious you draw your inspiration from your deep love for your husband Hamada. I pray God continues to give you strength to make your husband happy and comfortable. The Lord bless and keep all of you.
Minna Van Stone
The Joyful Franciscan

Leslie:My Space said...

That is one of the most beautiful things I have read for a long time. Thank you. Leslie

Susie Hemingway said...

A big thank you to you all, for your wonderful comments and for taking the time to read "my poems of love"
Very special thanks to Janey x and to Jo x [ Jo, I pray that I can write a more hopeful poem for you next time in this diary of Daddy's journey with MM ]
Very Special thanks go to Lt. Michael Morse from Providence, Rhode Island who never fails to write something that stirs my heart.. Bless You.
Also to Judy - who has been following Hamada's journey from the beginning and sends me such wonderful support from Canada X and also for all the other comments, thank you for taking the time from your busy lives, it is lovely to know that you enjoy my poems for Hamada, too.

John said...

This is a beautiful poem, So real, very touching and poignant. Best wishes both.

Barbara,Caregiver. Acor. said...

I have been reading and enjoying your poetry. You are such a talent.

Mark and Barbara said...

Susie,
Absolutely beautiful. I am so moved by your words.. Your words capture such true true emotions.
Thank you for sharing your gift.
Barbara

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Mark and Barbara, for your kind words.. for taking the time from your busy days to comment..my best wishes to you both.

Anonymous said...

I just found the time to read this one and have welled up at my desk..., I hope you get your wish to see him on the garden swing once more. All my love to you both through the ongoing 'battle of the beast'.
Els.xx

Anonymous said...

Beautiful, thank you for sharing with me. Elaine

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Els... the warmer days are coming now and soon again D.V. we WILL see our dear Hamada resting in his swing once more.. bless you dear-heart for your continued support X

Ricardo Phillips S.A. said...

Fantastic poem, I just need the time with hope now to read the others.
Ricardo Phillips

Sally Carter said...

love your poem it sounds like you write straight from your heart.

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Sally...My Poem "I Write For You" was read by me on the BBC Radio this morning, during Poetry Week.

Janice Thomson said...

So very poignant yet again. Such depth to your poems...

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