~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

06 September, 2009

"It Was A Comforting Day" - Susie Hemingway

“It was a comforting day” you said
skies of blue, white vapoury
scudding clouds lifting the
shimmering colourful kites
to the heavens in breezy skitsy way,
I followed your eyes
I tried to see your soul,
in quiet reverie as no one knows
the heart that pushes down the pain
in a day affirmative that popped
like champagne.

Laughter surrounds you
consuming and capturing this
mere moment but for you a life
so difficult and as fragile
as the bubbles in my glass,
breathe my love, live in mind forever
this sun warmed golden day
of perpetual joy,
paint these brushstrokes
on your heart, for life is now,
this time is ours
as precious and as beautiful
as the stunning mosaic sky.

My cares fluttered like the
swooping of the Kites
free and belonging to the skies,
intrinsic as the white opal swirls of the clouds
tossing my sadness into the wind
so carrying us forward with courage
to yet another day
refreshed and replenished
you glanced at me,
in soft light fading...it was a comforting day.

Copyright@Susie Hemingway 2009.
Photo courtesy of Matt Rutherford.

This poem is dedicated to Dianne and Vern West, Nevada, Arkansas USA
for their courage.

"It Was A Comforting Day" has now been selected by United Press for a new book of Poetry called "Spring Vision" to be published shortly.


Michael Morse said...

How could such a beautifully written, almost whimsical piece be so heartbreaking?

How do you make hoplessness seem almost ...enviable?

How do you manage to wring every ounce of joy out of each moment, while living with MM?

As I watch my wife's MS worsen and her ability to move decrease, and her spitit deflate, only to magically reappear the next day I see how.

The value of the gift of your words is truly priceless. How could anybody put a price on hope and joy?

Thank you for comforting part of my day!

Dianne in Nevada's MM Blog said...

Oh my, Susie. How very blessed I am to have you dedicate such a beautiful poem to Vern & I. Thank you, thank you. Today truly was "a comforting day".

Catherine said...

"Fantastic as always Susie xx"

Susie Hemingway said...

Michael, thank you so much for the truly lovely comment on "It Was A Comforting Day" I am so sorry to read that your wife's MS is getting worse and troublesome on certain days.I am sure with your strength she will continue bravely and do well. I so wish we could wave a magic wand and make our loved ones better. You ask "how do I manage to find joy when living with this dreadful disease" because if we take time to look, there IS much joy in every day and this is all I have, the here and now. So perhaps one day the recording of my thoughts of these times will be helpful to me and others...perhaps?

Susie Hemingway said...

Dianne, you so deserve this dedication - it is just a small token of my respect and admiration for your total love and devotion to Vern*. You are one very couragous Lady!

*Vern West was diagnosed at exactly the same time as our dear Hamada and they are making their journeys with MM together.

Lori Puente said...

Susie, it truly IS a Journey to get to the calmness and serenity I felt while reading your poem, "It Was a Comforting Day". I thank you for all your artistic expression. It speaks to me.

Thinking of you and Hamada and your beautiful family!


Karen Brook Westhaver said...

Stepping into your wonderful poem was as being there with you, to the point where I could feel the warmth of the sun on my shoulders. Such a powerful reminder of living in the moment as that is where, after all, life is! You manage to fully achieve what I only strive to do, even in the title of my blog, "Joy for the Day", to seek out and discover those nuggets of joy, however quiet they might be, the different glowing hues and shades of brilliance abiding in every moment. Such power, such grace...and you harvest it all so uniquely, thoroughly, and make it your own. Thank you for sharing so generously.

Lora Conrad said...

Susie – What a precious & thoughtful gift you are giving to Dianne & Vern, knowing all their struggles presently, even though you and Hamada have your own challenges. There is much hope and power in the words you penned. I believe God is watching over all of us through those clouds that Matt captured so perfectly in that gorgeous photo. Thank you again and again for sharing your love for life with all of us

Sandy said...

Each time I read your powerful words, Suzie, I am deeply touched. Whatever circumstances one may find him or herself in, it is possible to find those positive nuggets that get us through what may seem insurmountable. Thank you, thank you for continuing to point us in the direction of looking for the good in each day!

Sunshine said...

As always, thank you. We had that kind of days this past weekend, too. It is good to celebrate them.
Prayers and prayers for you both.

kenju said...

Susie, what a handsome couple you were - and are. I commend you for this courageous journey; traveled with such grace.

Thank you so much for your visit to my blog. I hope you will come back often - as I will here.

Dave King said...

Very, very moving. The whole poem, but especially the first verse which I though exceptional. I loved your use of unexpected words such as skitsy and the rhyming of pain with champagne, for example. Like much else in the poem it was inspired and for your husband, I am sure, inspirational.

It is given an extra dimension by your husband's condition, but would be a fine achievement anyway.

Every blessing to you both.

Bee said...

Susie, I wanted to thank you for the very kind comments you left on my blog . . . but I have been blown away by what I found here.

I haven't yet experienced the depth of pain and worry you are going through, but your words made the comfort of the day so very easy to access . . . and brought tears to my eyes. I hope you have many more such days. xx

jinksy said...

Reading your blog touched a raw nerve for me. My ex, with whom I remained good friends, was diagnosed with multiple myeloma at Easter time in 2000, but sadly did not survive long enough to see our first grandchild born on 7 July that year. My thoughts go out to you...

Arija said...

Susie, thank you for your visit. Yet again do the angels weave connections. Your dear man has stood in the shadow of the pearly gates, his sould shines through his eyes with the lustre that only the knowing and inner peace provide. I have been there a number of times and been sent back.
Somehow holding life lightly by the hand makes us appreciate and enjoy it so much more.

We live on a farm in the Adelaide Hills outside a village that has two pubs and two churches. We also have a connection with the Dales as we keep a small but pure flock of Leicester sheep.

Your poetry sings to my soul and I thank you for it.

Dave King said...

A lovely tribute to an obviously deserving couple. Very well done.

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you very much for all these lovely and most generous comments, I am so glad that you all care to read my poems and then during your busy days take time to comment.How kind you are and to some new names I see listed here, welcome to "A Power Within" I sincerely hope you can find time to return once again to read more of my poems, there are indeed a large number. I welcome your thoughts and truly appreciate feed-back from other poetry lovers.
A very special thank you to Mr King, I am humbled by your comments and sincerely welcome any critique of yours.

Michael Morse said...

Just remember, I knew you when!

Your popularity is spreading, and well deserved!

Susie Hemingway said...

You certainly did Lieutenant Morse, and I thank you sincerely for your encouragement in the early days, and for your continued support during this 'Journey'

Anonymous said...

Vern & Dianne West are my Aunt and Uncle and I haven't ever read such wonderful poetry !! God bless you and your writing.

Susie Hemingway said...

To Anonymous, thank you kindly for your comment on
"It Was A Comforting Day" It has been such a very tough time for both your Aunt Dianne and Uncle Vern, and I admire and respect your Aunt so much, as I understand entirely what she is having to go through having been in a similar situation twice with my husband, who is also fighting this dreadful Multiple Myeloma. I wanted to dedicate this poem to them both, they are very brave indeed. I send my very sincere wishes to you.

Zee said...

I salute your love to Hamada...I highly respect your feelings...Just Keep writing!

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