~ Poems of Love ~

The following poems have been written by me, for my husband Hamada, who suffered from Multiple Myeloma [IgG Kappa] a cancer of the plasma cells, which are found in the bone marrow. After many months of chemotherapy, contracting pneumonia twice, once given only twelve hours to live and having three bad fractures to his spine and also showing in his Pelvis, he made it to four years seven months. The Multiple Myeloma attacked his Kidneys first showing at diagnosis in May 2006 leaving Hamada only a small percentage of kidney function. He never complained, using his most amazing smile even when I knew he had severe pain. Hamada underwent a Stem Cell Transplant using his own 'harvested stem cells' . During October 2007 he spent seventeen days in the "Centre For Clinical Haematology" at Nottingham City Hospital UK. where he achieved this transplant. We had a scare at six months after transplant, when told 'the beast was back' but subsequent tests showed a partial remission. Again in early 2009 it was confirmed that Hamada was out of remission He fought again during 2010 with newer chemo type drugs. First with Velcade and then with Revlimid but to no avail. His Kidneys were failing further and Hamada chose not to have dialysis. This blog contains poems and updates, written for Hamada, telling of our life together.
Now a beautiful book has been published, see http://www.susiehemingway.com/books/
showing Hamada's personal fight against Multiple Myeloma in the first fifty 'poems of love' written by me his wife. I hope you like these poems of love and also 'our story' dedicated to Hamada, who passed away peacefully at home on 23 November 2010 after a most courageous fight against Multiple Myeloma.

18 October, 2009

"I Carry Thee" - by Susie Hemingway.



I carry thee like the heavy rain drenched leaves cover the precious plants
I carry thee like the mother with soft-fleshed babe in arms
I carry thee on heavy days, when limbs are tired but heart is willing
I carry thee.
I think for you on difficult days when drug filled mind is fuddled and quiet
I think ahead for you with heavy heart filled with anxious thoughts of decisions that must be made
I think of you when struggles to move are hard and bones make creaks and eyes are dulled
I think of you.
I watch for you, I listen to your breathing, when night has fallen and stillness comes
I watch for you with hope you never stumble or fall
I watch for you to make that kiss you love, entirely right at night
I watch for you.
I dream for you that days will pass pain free and be filled with God’s blessings
I dream for you when watching Autumn leaves fall as trees again show their tangled limbs.
I dream for you that you will see the Summer sun, rise across the pastures green once more

I carry thee....

@ Copyright 2009

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11 comments:

A Cuban In London said...

Not only is it a beautiful poem, but also a highly rhythmical one. And poets sometimes forget about the syncopated rhythm that poetry can or does convey. If you speak or understand Spanish, I suggest you give a listen to Misia's version of 'Te Extrano' (I can't do that Spanish consonant on my keyboard, the one with the little hat on top). It is a wondeful song and it echoes your feelings.

Many thanks.

Greetings from London.

Dianne West said...

Ahh, yes … “I carry thee” … we do, don’t we? Another beautifully written poem from your heart, Susie, and so very poignant for where we find ourselves these days. It is as if you have taken residence with us. Thank you again for sharing your very special gift.

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you so much "A Cuban in London" for your kind comments. I am so pleased you enjoyed the rhythm of this poem/prayer. I understand only a little Spanish but have listened to 'Te Extrano' i was unable to find (as yet) Misia's version, but found one by De Armando Manzanero which i have enjoyed immensely. Thank you for pointing me in the right direction of this most beautiful song and for your most constructive critique

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Dear Dianne, We walk the same road don't we. Supporting each other, as our husbands battle against this wretched Multiple Myeloma. Stay strong sweet lady,
my sincere good wishes as always, to you both.

Janey Johnson said...

This new prayer/poem is inspiring

Walt Trachim said...

Carrying one another - that's what it's all about, isn't it?

Thank you, Susie.

Margie said...

Your poem is so beautiful and heartfelt!
Love it Susie!

Susie Hemingway said...

Thank you Walt, well your kindness (and Michael M's) has in it's own way, 'carried me through' some rough old times, with your consistant great support.
Thank you.

Susie Hemingway said...

Marge, I am so flattered with your comment and coming from such a writer as you. Truly a big thank you.

Helen said...

Susie, I wish I had more time this morning .... but will return to read what I know will be amazingly lovely poetry. Take care, both of you.

Minna Van Stone said...

Minna Van Stone. May the burdens on your heart be weightless. Easy to see the love. Enjoy the joy of the day.

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